I haven't been feeling my best, this past week. And I'm not quite sure what to do about it.
I think sometimes it's a matter of accepting the darker, less pleasant feelings... Sadness, depression, frustration, fear... Accepting those emotions for being there, being real, being valid, and then sitting with them for a bit, instead of pushing them away, trying to pretend they have no right to be there, pretending they don't exist.
Yet at the same time, I feel like I'm using depression as a safety net. Thinking that because I'm feeling down, I don't have to do the things that frighten or frustrate me. Letting that keep me in my safe little bubble.
So I don't trust these feelings, because I don't know how honest they are, and how honest I'm being with myself! I don't know if I should be accepting and working through these emotions, or simply giving myself a kick in the ass and telling myself to stop whining. It's a bit of a dilemma, really.